I really need a *pout* icon.

[skkyechan]

If some giant, flashing neon sign doesn't descend from the heavens to point me in exactly the direction general direction (shoot, at this point I'll take anything!) I'm supposed to go, I'm going to start power-pouting. And let me tell you, that won't be pretty.

I mean, my god! Think of the nalroths caught in the crossfire!!

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I'm getting very frustrated by the fact that I have no idea what I want to do with life, or where even to look for my next job. Hopefully I'll get frustrated enough that whatever block there is in my head that pops up when I say to myself "Okay, so what makes skkyechan happy?" will go *poof* into a million shiny, sparkly shards.

All my life I felt like I've been looking for something. I've always been hurrying through things, moving onto the next and the next. I've always felt driven, and I've been especially nervous and restless lately because of it, and I have no idea what I'm even being driven towards, or what's doing the driving.

Self exploration can be such a pain. n__n;;

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[cheetahmaster.livejournal.com]

Self exploration can be such a pain.

I always take comfort from the fact that this has been going on as long as people have been around. The ancient Greeks didn't knwo what to do with themselves, so it's OK that I am struggling too.

Honestly, despite his other faults, my dad gave us one invaluable piece of advice: pick something you enjoy doing, because if you don't, you won't enjoy doing it, and it'll become a chore, and then you won't do it very well anyways, and end up looking for something else.

So. What do you like doing?

[skkyechan.livejournal.com]

Mmm. That does bring comfort-- the knowledge that this isn't new, and that people and humanity as a whole have progressed enough through it to make some really amazing things. I just guess I hold myself to the bar set by those who knew themselves, who found their place and contributed timeless works because of it. Maybe some of what's tied up in my stress over finding a job is also stress over my newly-realized mortality, and the desire to leave some kind of mark or legacy?

Yay stream of concious! ;D

So. What do you like doing?

At first blush I always panic at this question, thinking 'I don't know what I like to do!'. The truth is I know what I like to do, but when I try to think of the likelihood of finding a sustainable career out of it, that's when I panic. But since I think this was supposed to be a rhetorical question, I'll go make a list and ponder it elsewhere. ;)